My World, My Fight, My Breath, My Heart !!
to overcome it
piece yo!
"if u asked me am i PISSED with the treatment given to my lil bro earlier at the GH, my answer is that : I AM ... but it DOESNT matter .. wat is important to me NOW is what "to do to make my lil one better" - exactly words i said to the doctor whom tried to blame me for not telling them what actually happen to edmund ; when DID try to explain to then in the simplest words.. that my bro NEEDED an ATTENTION."
"FnF : update on my beloved bro procedure today : he is stable and awake. he is strong and able to talk, smile n make jokes .. and before we left he was asking for food.. lapar dia bilang ... but he is yet to be given any food or drink ... that is my lil boy ... kuat momom..."
"i remember long ago , when my lil bro is still little boy .. i used to call him 'ayang' ... and when i call him up that name infornt of his fren , he will 'tarik muka' and go up to the hse and said ... jan panggil saya ayang bha...today i call him ayang again .. i cant describe how i really felt now...
FnF : thanks for the prayer and concern ... "
it took them more than 1 month to CORRECTLY diagnose my lil Bro problem ... huk huk huk ....and required some ARGUEMENT from non-medic-educated like me ...
my youngest bro Edmund is currently undergo an operation to remove a tumor in his head... am worried sick and hoping everything goes as plan. pls pray for him ....my dear beloved Bro ... God is always with u !
here is a story of my lil bro ; been vomitting and constant headache for the 1 1/2 month . we have been in n out of GH , but was told it is due to Gastric , up till last 2 week ,he become very weak and couldnt get up...but still given the gastric pill . last wed, he got a seizure.. yet the Dr refure to admit him to hosp...
I got pissed and argue with the Dr, then only they said , WHY i didnt tell them the sympthom and etc .. i said for now i only need to know what can they do for my bro. t took them 2 days to do CT scan ( only after i insist on it...) and was told there is something in his brain... MRI can only be done in QEH , but have to wait... i opt for private service ....
so here is my advice , my lil bro who is only 22yrs old is just having headache .. a common headache ..... but without we realising he is actually in real pain of carrying this tumor.... i dont know what else to say .. bbut it just a headache .. :( ....the procedure should finish at 5pm today ...
i just realise something else, my bro always say he had this headache for quite smetimes...n keep taking panadol.. and i notice too why he was not given 'urgent' attention from the Dr at the GH, he is not the time who complaint about his pain with words.. or gesture . he rather opt for sleeping ..... maybe next time if we are sick we should cry aduh .. aduiiiiiiiiiiiii aduhhhhhhhhhhhh.. baru kena cek betul2 kan ..?
my lil bro , i know u r strong .. and a real fighter .. be stronger this time k.. ( teringat 3 weeks ago, while my car broke down, my lil bro send me to school with his bike... and it was raining .. and he was already sick by then..!!) huk huk huk!Again, early this morning at 7 am, mum called, asked for our prayer to be with him...to make him stronger...from the voice, I've sensed mummy in a real pain...yeah, I know mum always panic in everywhere in anything... But, please be strong enough to make your son go thru all this pain....We will all together go thru this... Along been heading from Lahad Dato to Kota Kinabalu, which it's took about 6 - 7 hours journey... Pity him, whereby in the middle of the road needs to take a nap or stop due to tiredness and still need to travelling for a sake of our lil' brother...so much of sacrifice...Not sure what time Along reached there...
It is bearable that opportunities are limited depending on how well-off financially one's family is but when higher education opportunities are race-based, like it is in Malaysia, it is downright cruel for those who see education as the only way out of poverty.I surely agreed to the statement...I might have not see the outside world well enough... To experience the exactly what people has discovered... and hell yeah, to all the well-off financially family does they really use up their opportunity on education to improve the sociality ? or just maybe continue using up all the wealthy that has been accumulated generation to generation... ? Thank God to the great-grandpa/ma for the thinking outside the box to survive, gain and grab the opportunity for their beloved generation...
Not to be racist, but myself had encountered the situation on our very 1 Malaysia beloved country...The injustice the non-Malay have to suffer in frightening silence is the most damaging problem one has to face throughout one's life. You just have to look at the mighty govt structures which completely favours only one race, the Umno Malay.The Chinese and Indians are treated no better than the illegal Indonesians.Racism and corruption are openly practised by the Malay politicians everywhere, Courts, schools/Uni, police, govt offices, contracts, GLC, NEP, ISA, local govt.
It's so powerful and intimidating that you walk with fear and keep your mouth shut on anything and everything political.Religion is taboo unless you talk good about Islam.
For the work study, I worked as a custodian (yes, cleaning toilets), carpet layer, computer lab assistant, grounds keeping, librarian, painter, tour guide, etc. If you understand the US credit system, you will understand this is a heavy load.
Why did I do it? This is because I learnt as a young child from my parents that hard work is an opportunity, to give my best in everything, and to take pride in the work I do. I walked away with a double major and a minor with honors but most of all a great lesson in humility and a great respect for those who are forced to labor in so-called `blue collar' positions.Status and ego's where it's came out 1st... Yes people, does anyone have the courage to live their dream ?
