damn S .A.D !!

huhuhu...
sad feeling !! damn it !!
it's hurt me !!

no goals...no intention...
it's just like a zombie without a feeling !!
and how i wish i have no feeling at all...

irritated !! offended !!

can't undo what's had happened...
my destiny?
can't satisfy everyone...

acting and pretending !!
cruel !!

break it down??
ready to go right now??

the GAME

wasting my time...
playing the game following the rhythm surround...
the game that they played...

say da....daaaa daaa daaa dii daa dii daaa....
tired !!
a learning lesson...
life never be so good !!
life never be so nice !!
life never be so smooth !!

I'm sitting here...waiting for something...
perhaps it's would be a miracle to be happen...
watching surround...
listening to the tune...
perception and acceptation...
i been watching...
watching...and waiting...
every single word...every single move you made...

twisting around..straight forward...strict and firm??
attitude and behave??
karma... yin and yang.... comes around goes around ??

so many things messing and twisting in my mind now...
for the god sake, the game has began...
i wish i know somewhere ....
i don't care what you do to them...just be good to me

for the time that we shared

moody

moody...unsecured...doubting...disbelief...!!!!!!

sorry for everything... for the time that i felt this

i had messed it up with everything...

people around me..

I'm not suppose to question it, rather to make it worse

not my intention...

you always be my ears which i appreciated it the most

those crap that keep repeating and you were there

even you had so much to do...

so much to think that much more important

compare to listen my mumbling....

i know that i acted weird

sometimes i don't understand but try to make it clear

even it cleared it still mingling around my mind..

p/s: cant sleep even the time ticking and shown 11am...

looking and playing with my gf's baby girl...

she awake and look for hers bottle milk...

feed her, play and talking...

its story times...

gonna stop now and look after her cuz none of them wake up yet....

baby, I'm sorry