Kenangan Terindah

listen to this song just now...
follow the rythm and yeah...
sang along too...
quite old song...
and really seldom that i listen to malay songs...

just paste the lyric here...
cant link to youtube as ACCESS DENIED by company policy..
huhuhu....

Samsons - Kenangan Terindah

Aku yang lemah tanpamu

Aku yang rentan karena

Cinta yang tlah hilang darimu

Yang mampu menyanjungku

Selama mata terbuka

Sampai jantung tak berdetak

Selama itu pun

Aku mampu tuk mengenangmu

Darimu...

Kutemukan hidupku

Bagiku...

Kau lah cinta sejati

Ooh...

Bila yang tertulis untukku

Adalah yang terbaik untukmu

Kan kujadikan kau kenangan

Yang terindah dalam hidupku

Namun takkan mudah bagiku

Meninggalkan jejak hidupku

Yang tlah terukir abadi

Sebagai kenangan yang terindah

Ooh...

never knew i need it

undisclosed desire...

scary thought...

I'm hiding what I'm feeling...

my heart is pounce

don't tell a lie

unbreakable....here i am once again

you can have all...

anything you want, you can make it yours

anything you want in the world...

i hate this part...

rite here !!!

妈咪爱你

“妈咪永远认你, 爱你, 视你如自己的女儿..

妈咪希望你能坚强的走出痛苦..

忘记不愉快..

记看妈咪, 无论你在哪里,

或者有任何改变,

你一定要第一个让我知道.. 保持联络”

how can i....

received a message from mummy..

"do you know what day is today?"

how can i??

how can i forget what date is today...

for the 1st place,

i dont even wanna think bout it nor remember it

but she asked me to send a message n wishes..

saying that..

been scolded n unhappy

"promise yourself to be happy and good health always"

it's always the same wishes i wish to...

moved out

I didn't expect this...
never thought it'll happen...

but, what I could do??
I can plan it...but what ever happened, it's still all over HIS hand !!

For an official announcement,
24th Jan 2010
I've moved out from the place that give me a lot of memories...
a place that I learn how is KL life's...
a place that I care so much...
a place that lots good memories goes started...
a place of hopes and wishes...

at the end...
a place that become a terrified place (hmmm..maybe too much of it)
a place that i don't feel like to come back...
a place that horrified me??

and here I am...
to start all over again...
by my own self..
like I never been here...
wish that i have the strength
even thou i have, I hope that I could stand it firm !!

you ~~

Is there really "YOU" in you ??

Does "YOU" really appeared ??

or

Only ME

MY illusion and delusion ??

or

Only ME

still in my own WORLD ??

Hold On

I just can't give it enough...
I gave up..
I left it...

Yes I'm scared !!
I know how deep my wound are !!

I don't need any sympathies...
Don't give that look...
Don't ask me...

You'll know when I need you..
When, in a sudden...I will request for it..

Hug me ...
Hold me tight..
Kiss my forehead...
to make me feel better...
only that I request for...

Once I said I LOVE YOU,
I really meant it !!
No bluffing, No lies...

just keep me safe...
Don't Lose Grip..Hold On ~

bleed bleed

sob sob..
im bleed !!
fall down n get injured !!
gosh gonna get blue black again...
ankle swell already...
and knee bleeding...
wat a bad day...
wat a clumsy i am...
not really in a gud health dis weeks..kinda weak, headache, cold n hot...

arghhh...reddish dy

gosh..bcome ugly knee

a gift

a present gift i had...

an advance birthday gift??

LOL !!

anyway..thx a lot...

appreaciated it so much...

bought it at HOJB Crystals for Living ~~
its an Amethyst Gemstone necklace...

does it nice ??

*sigh*

love it so much...

ramdomly ~~

just get back from lunch...
stil not in da mood to start my work...
playing wif the pixie...
hmmm...mood mood fly away...
as I DID'NT get my review performance...
arghhh...get lost bout it...
talk cock and kiss bosses ass...
don't know what the smell would be...
and i dont care !!

LOL !! concentrating ?? *sigh*

ermmm...blow blow the air inside your mouth ~~

my lunch ... once there is lotsa order need to do...

1st - tear it
took out the seasoning n the fork

2nd - add the seasoning into it and add hot water too

wait for errrr...duno...as long it can eat dy, den mai ready to be eat... T.T


3rd - here it come...my lunch !! done... LOL !!

this is the training conducted on 4th and 5th Jan 2010

chiao ~~

get back to da work station now...

i LOVE you Gruffy !!

yay !!
just done editing my pixie for my baby ^^
*wink wink*

was thkg to upload ASAP...but too busy wif workload, class, assignment, and yeah...the tiredness !!

last xmas, i got myself a present..
LOL !!
better then nothing...hahhaha

presenting my baby...
Mr. GRUFFY !!
hahhaha..named it...

bought it online...from a forum that i, kind of always log in to...

LowYat.Net

hahahha...i'm bored !! and this is what i do !!!

Mr. Gruffy doin works....
hehehhe.... *sigh*
Listening to da music....

and yeah !!
i LOVE it so much....
love you a lot baby....
muacksz, Mr. Gruffy !!
hugs you all the time... (in office oni...hahhaaha...)

evaluation

evaluate !!
calculating !!

UNEXPECTED !!

LOL !! this was what i got from 1 of my team member which is based in Hong Kong....

last week; Karen - came down to KL for training and check on us how we do the process and applied on it...

comment that i got from her... UNEXPECTED !!

all of us - out of 8 , I'm the unusual one...

hmmm...asking, is that bad or good ??

LOL !!

yeah, as she said - I'm naughty, so immature - which i admit, i am *sigh* as i don't know how mature and serious are people surround me and i cant live without teasing people...
and as she reviewed and evaluated me, she said that - " you are totally different, you know how and what to do, what is the process and how to handle it, but in person, you not like the person that i expected to...girl, you need to be serious and i am sure you can do much more better than this and its for your own future, show to them that you can do it as i know you can do it perfectly !! for your appearance, for your sake, for people not to under estimated you !! "

okie....bad combo with the good !!
*sigh*
i don't know what and how to talk to the bosses as i am not a sweet talker...
i do my work as it's required...
i am randomly as i do work and things based on what i thought...
no need compliment as i know on what level and stage i am...

hmmm...don't let people bully you as they under estimated you !!

transparency

hmmm....

no more trust !!

just wanna b a transparency !!

just leave it !!

sometimes, we do not need make decision...

following the flow is the last choice we have...

decision maker??

rather to be like this than hurting and been hurt...

rather that i do not know anything than i know everything...

actor and actress !!

make the day and color the life....

synonyms or acronyms...

visible or invisible...

tangible or intangible..

what you now is what were you for tomorrow??
is that true??

So What

I guess I just lost myself, again !!

I don't know where she went

I've got a brand new attitude,
And I'm gonna wear it tonight
I'm gonna get in trouble
I wanna start a fight
I wanna start a fight
I wanna start a fight

And guess what

I'm havin more fun

And now that we're done !!

I'm gonna show you tonight

I'm alright

I'm just fine

You weren't there
You never were
You want it all but that's not fair
I gave you life
I gave my all
You weren't there,
you let me fall...........................

and you'll never get the best of me...

never !!! ever !!

you'll regret !! and i'll make it sure its happen...

course I wanna start a fight !!

i'm throwing on

work....
house...
study....
life....

DONT THINK !! STOP THINKING !!

I NEED MY MUSIC NOW !!

i mean NOW ! !

Ahh ahh
Ohh ohh yeah
Ohh ohh
Aaaahhhhhh.. radio killa.....

What goes around, comes back around

And then you get what you deserve !!!

falling to me

fuhhhh.....

" I LOVE YOU, Cynthia !!!

You are the best !! "

i cant live without you around here...

you always make my day...

your's words...your's sentence...your's attitude...

you rock gal !! "

hahhaa...always get this sentence frm my gal...
she always stress for the workload that she do...
but yeah...who never??

work is work...
can't run from it...
like it or leave it...
unless you are freaking rich like Bill Gates??

she always said : " hey Cynthia, why you always make don't know...so cool...even got a lot of work, u still can laugh, even been scolded, still make fun of it...I'm jealous of you !! serious shit, how you manage do that ?? and you know how to take ur times by browsing your blog, your online sales, bla bla bla blaaaa...and in 1 times you done your work !! you seriously crazy Cynthia !! Love you so much darling !! "

well, my dear, dont too serious bout it...
just do your own job..make it done as soon as possible within the time frame..
there is nothing you cant do it...
laugh, smile and cheerish is a must in our daily life !!

makan *PO*

LOL !!

goodness....OZ ppl come back frm long hols...
now the request like.....nobody business...
piling up for almost 20 orders within 5 mins....
crazy...

i love them very much !! solute !!
crazy .... !!

so...here i am...
ready for multi windows as usual...
open like 7 windows only for my PO's...
do in 1 shot...calling those supplier for insurance updates as well...
replying those invoices that thy claimed cant go thru...
supplier make noise as thy cant get payment...
gonna stop thy services and make legal action...bla bla blaaa....

draft PO's haven counted yet..arghhhh...
nid a break....looks like get stuck to this pc and seat...

gotta back to my order..only an update for the workload...

Happy Birtday Sis

happy birthday sis...

to both of you...

the gap only for 1 day...while the years is like 6 years..

huh...hw fast times goes..

feel like yesterday dat Sis Idah pampered me..

while refresh back...

she the most beloved sis i have...

yeah...sumtimes will feel like she keep mumbling..

this and that...but deep down thr..

she love me so much..

and for sure...im the most stubborn she ever had..

still remember hw u cook porridge long time ago...

and still remember hw i feel like i have lost u once u married..

hw i mad dat some one had took u frm me...

and hw i hate dat person who took ur love frm me...

hahhaa..kinda funny tho ~~

until the time dat u ask me to move in wif u...

hw i glad that i'll get back ur love...

and yeah..i've been ur children baby sister...

saw thm grow up...frm baby till teenage...

hw i miss those faces...

thx sis... i love u so much....

for my 2nd sis...

here we are begin...

as owez...keep argue and fighting since child...

hahhaa...

both of us have different personality..

u have the courage, the discipline and the credibility..

hw i envy you...all ths time...

you the most successful..

and yeah...both of us dont even have any nicer memory...

except the fighting ....uhhhh...since kid??

scratch here scratch thr...those times...

mayb cuz we never been get together...

u've been to MRSM since 13yrs old...

and only came back aftr i'm in the age of 19 ....

btw...i love u so...

cuz u owez noe hw to handle thgs

and nvr ask for so much of thgs..

only an advice for me...

for my elder's sister ~~ Sis Idah ~~ Happy 35th

for my 2nd sister ~~ Sis Adeq ~~ Happy 29th

wish both of u have a good healthy, wealth and happy owez...

p/s: soalan bonus for u..as usual..the same question will keep on repeating...

whn Mr. R wanna bcome a part of our family...

hehehhee...

anyway...love u both....

muacksz ~~

the Ugly Truth

Let me tell you something you already know. The world ain't all sunshine and rainbows. It is a very mean and nasty place and it will beat you to your knees and keep you there permanently if you let it. You, me, or nobody is gonna hit as hard as life. But it ain't about how hard you hit; it's about how hard you can get hit, and keep moving forward. How much you can take, and keep moving forward. That's how winning is done. Now, if you know what you're worth, then go out and get what you're worth. But you gotta be willing to take the hit, and not pointing fingers saying you ain't where you are because of him, or her, or anybody. Cowards do that and that ain't you. You're better than that!

- Rocky Balboa -

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I hated every minute of training, but I said,

"Don't quit. Suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion."

- Muhammad Ali -

a call

a call wil make me sad...
a reporting call actually...

this and that...
bla bla blaaaa....

just take everythg wat u want...
take all...thr is nothg more left..

only thgs dat thr stil remain unspoken...

Every night I cry myself to sleep
Thinking: "Why does this happen to me?
Why does every moment have to be so hard?"
Hard to believe that..........

just burried it thr and remain as unspoken...

*LOL*

I'm pretty but I'm NOT beautiful

I sin but I'm not DEVIL

I'm good but I'm NOT angel

Care

Those who care, already knows.

Those Who don't know never would want to know.

Therefore to think has no benefit but to self??

satisfaction

If like i could split my MIND, BODY and SOUL to SATISFY everyone...

but i'm sorry, i really CAN'T

the only thgs i could give is the SMILE in my face to brighten up everyone that i met !!

Friend ~~

Friendship isn’t how much you forget, but how you forgive.

Not how you listen, but how you understand.

Not how you see, but how you feel.

Not how you let go, but how you hold on!

I Love YOU !!

thx sis...
thx for the understanding...
thx for not asking...
thx cuz you all will owez b thr for me...

thr is no regret for wat had happening...

dont worry bout me...
i'll be safe...and stil b me...even dat i owez b stubborn...
i knw...all of u wil worry bout me...
cuz i am urs lil' notty sis...
little?? hmmm...i owez be...right??
the most stubborn 1 ?

just want let you all know...
no matter what...
you all my no. 1 and top star in my heart...

the only thg dat i really mess now..
mummy....
mummy will thk alot of stuff...
just take care of her...i cant b thr...but, she owez b in my heart !!

mummy, dae, along, kakak, ley, deq....im sorry !!
sorry for keep this long...

i will take care myself here...

love always...