If...

Disaster Strom

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....................................

I'm in disaster mood now!!!
it's no longer windy but a thunder storm with a lighting everywhere...
yeah...everywhere !!!

I'm almost giving up...
and let it be what it want's to be...

the ignorance...not the attention that I need,
only something that I could hold on it...

im my little mind...
"should I or shouldn't I ? "

Owl..boop boop ~~

Again…
The night never be as peaceful ever
A night that always make me awake
Am I’m thinking too much?
And it’s seemed really true and real even in the dream…

The only expression that I could give is
Only a silent mode and hoping that my brain stop thinking…
I mean by not think anything….
Duh… brain stop thinking = dead ?
- . = ||

yeah…just keep going and pushing on….
There always be an uphill battle…

A dream…
Heart pounding even harder and harder…
A nightmare?
Awakening with a shaken body
Distracted it by only make a call or message to the beloved one….
Hoping it could cool down the pressure and stressful…
While the tear keep dropping silently…

When it comes to TRUE LOVE...

If you could sing, you wouldn’t be out in this heat, trying to entice someone to drive off in that convertible...

Fate couldn’t be that cruel, could it?
It just wouldn’t be fair!!

Do you really think you’ll find a genuine guy among all those pretenders?

A girl can dream...

And dreaming was all I ever did and it was time to either make those dreams come true, or settle for what I already had...

No one has ever made me feel this way before...
Could he be the one?
But when a romantic road trip is sidetracked a diamond heists and admits he’s involved,
I am not sure anymore that he’s my Prince Charming...

Now I’ll have to discover if he is steering her straight toward heartbreak or if he’s the best thing that’s ever happened to me...

Kisses don’t lie !!!

Body Language

Materialistic
Demanding
All came along with a feeling called security...

People changed as life goes on...
Not everyone!!!
Some been pampered all the way of their journey of life...
Even get involve in a slightly tough day, there always someone be there to give a hand..
Some even couldn’t get or learn anything from the experiences they got...
As they couldn’t get what was the underneath of the lesson and couldn’t even mature them...

I tried to absorb every single new things and lesson everyday
And learn anything in pretty much of everything as much as I could...

The LIES
The UGLY THRUTH
The BETRAYEL

Still, I’m avoiding all the circumstances...
Pretty much of silences...
As any word came out would not be taken back...

Holding On

Daaa...

I don't know what i feel now...

Ever since...

I never felt any security in myself...

Not even anything...

Friends....Money.... or even Myself

Thus family couldn’t make me safe, enough...

What am I holding on...

Is only something that I couldn’t catch

My soul?

Following the life routine...

Wake up, bathing, preparing self, work, chi chi cha cha, back home...

Life goes on...

And another day wasted..

Without any secured and happiness...

While I’m smiling and laughing...

And I am pretty much of grateful on what I had...

Envy?

Jealousy?

Ambitious?

Attitude?

Ability?

Maybe I just lost my believer...

Yet, there is no trust in anywhere, anybody.....

Frustrated...

Hateful...

Forgiven...

Forgotten...

You name it....

Again, my mind goes to something that makes my heart keep pounding even harder, faster and producing more sweat; came along with a shaking body...

Yeah, I’m scared!!!

And I hate it when it makes me feel really uneasy and unsecure!!!