Lies...

There's so much things happen in my life recently.....

Well....I'm feeling a lil' depress before ----

and sometimes I lost the courage to go on with my life.........

I'm so down - - -

I've lost someone that I love..... someone that I can count on.....

I'm just fine ~~ I'm okay ~~ I'll try even I'm not ~~

deep inside my heart is bleeding ** my heart is screaming #@$#@

I'm lost for words... I'm lost in everything I do...

And everything I feel for him

he won't understand how much it hurts

Till now, I don't know the reason why he's leaving

There's tears in our eyes, but it's getting late.

We won't be just like before, a pair?

Not anymore, You've lost my respect my dear....

just a little bit

I'm just a little bit
Caught in the middle
Life is a maze
And love is a riddle
I don't know where to go
I can't do it alone
I've tried
And I don't know why

I am just a little girl

Lost in the moment

I'm so scared

But don't show it

I can't figure it out

It's bringing me down

I know I've got to let it go

I did it for love ~ Pissed Off

No signs for me

I saw your game but yet

and still you got me

You touched the deepest part of me
You got my heart it’s jumping
I told you all of my secrets

Didn’t see betrayal

Two days four weeks 3 months 3 years

And now it’s over

Didn’t think it would fail

Loving you is causing me to change

And it hurts so bad it don’t feel the same

And now my friends are asking me

"What did I do?"

Im done hurtin’ myself over loving you

Oh I

I can’t trust it anymore

Learning ~~

its a month ady...
all around bcome so strange...
like i never been here before..
all looks like so different for me...

for past two weeks...

i met new fren...

in my new activity actually...goin out to some places that what so i call it............

some ar too protective....some ar really strange...some ar really cutes....

and i dont even noe who ar thy...

for sure...all of thm ar nice...

or...frankly i duno how to differentiates it..

for me...thy all ar nice ppl..no judgement...

and can say that I'm too naive...

yeah...im learning now...
learn bout how big is the outside...
learn bout how far the path dat i could go..
learn bout thgs i never now b4...
learn bout ppl the most...
im trying...

im glad...

i met sum ppl tht too care...too proctective...and love me much...

thy all really nice....

yeah...those ppl dat i could call fren...

in term of it...maybe...

i duno much bout thm...thy aso duno much bout me...

we chill out..we keep change our mind...

we talk...we argue...we laugh...

all tht makes my life full of color aftr wat had happen...

i dont care much..am i ??
but...everythg is so spontaneous
all in sudden...

The struggles I'm facing,

The chances I'm taking

Sometimes they knock me down but

I'm not breaking

The pain I'm knowing

But these are the moments that

I'm going to remember most

yeah...Just got to keep going

And I,

I got to be strong

Just keep pushing on

Dont Speak

No Doubt

You and me

We used to be together

Every day together

always.

I really feel

That I'm losing my best friend

I can't believe

This could be the end.

It looks as though you're letting go

And if it's real

Well, I don't want to know.

Our memories

They can be inviting

But some are altogether

Mighty frightening.

It's all ending,

You've got to stop pretending who we are...

Unconditional Love!

Love is patient, love is kind.
It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres.
And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.
But the greatest of these is LOVE.

bluffing???

lolzz..
m i bluffing??

"we both totally change"

"really SORRY"

"take care"

"dont so easy to be cheated"

"going good there"

"my day going normal"

"nothing special"

huh...i duno wat those crap means??

is tht really a crap?? duno...i really duno...

does it really matter??

its so much crazy..

its so much going on...

im not sure...

im running away??

im shaking everytimes i miss you...

im shaking everytimes i think bout you..

crap...why those feeling make me so different...

from the person dat did not know anythg about the outside look likes

from the person dat did not know how to communicate

from the person dat did not know how to dress up

from the person dat dislike going out

from the person dat dislike of the smoke

huh...m i losing myself??

hate it...TOTALLY...

im keeping it..

im trying...

and im controling myself...

p/s: updated....

wat m i doin here??

its 12.00am already...

and yet...im still in da office...

am i lost again??

lolzz...total of losing now...around 10kg's ++

lolzz...its a good news huh...good in a bad way...

PainLess

No matter what...i feel really down...

this few weeks likes so hard for me...

No matter how hard i try....

But all the memories makes my heart broken into pieces...

until i also couldnt find the matches of the puzzles...

I'm trying so hard...not to be so emotional...

I'm trying to cool down...to hide all deeply in my heart...

But...places and things...make me wonder...makes me recall....

all of the happiness...we've been thru...

In such a second...all the pain and hurt stab into my heart...

Its really there....

all makes me wonder....and i hardly to take a breath...

i trying to let things go...

go far away from me...

and such...i couldnt imagine...

how fragile am i...

how i wish that everything is fine...and i couldnt wish and hope the bad things in you...

how i try to shout it loud...

but its useless...

and i dont even know...why???

why my tears so stubborn...

and frankly...there is no more tears...as i cant feel it anymore...

they say and ask me to let it go...

but...where is my tears??

its just...dissapeared and flew away from me???

This is the sound of the broken heart...

Now this will be the last time you did me wrong

No more layin up in your arms

I stayed at home like a good girl do

But tonite, you got me sad and blue

I just heard bout the girl in your car

Got me cry-y-y-ing

Cause it took my love

Why'd you had to take my love?

And you can be mad at me all you want

You did me wrong......tell me where our love went

I'd still have my love............

its raining...

yeap...its raining again...
inside out...
the strom and thunder...

i keep ask myself???
why??
again???
understand??

really....i cant understand at all...
i dont know..am i really stubborn...
am i stubborn enuf???
wht im waiting for??

an xplaination??
is it worthy?? does it really matter ???

wht the big idea??
listen to heart and let it pop..
say now.. say now or else you'll get down...
..............