..........

dont teach me what to do
no such thing in my list...
you'll not gaining my respect !!!

keep my word !!
once i said, i tired for all of this,
you gonna face it !!

i dont care who you are
what bull%^& you created
dont give me a damn...
you got the wrong person !!

try me !!
once i ruin it, there is no backward !!

twist

damn tired !!
tired with the internal politic surround...

yeah, i do know that everyone has their own benefit to keep their self safe...

even their just make around all those crap, their still ....with PROUDLY selling their story...

don't you feel ashamed??
kissing the ass...make up story...twisting around??

at the end, i only know my work done!! completed !!
as i do believe, I'm working with the job itself, not the environment...
and yes, the job and environment needs to go along together...
as the performance is the finally output we needs !!

but sometimes, its never as good as we wish....

how long could i survive with those tongue twister?

beat...

I've been looking for your heart....
Honestly, I still not owning it...
the pieces is still missing...
for now, I could only follow the rhythm...
left by the heart of yours.....

tired tired... !!!

superb TIRED !!!!

for all that happened..

work and surrounding...

i need a VACATION !!!

magic in the air

You're better then the best
And the moments where my good times start to fade
Even when you're gone
Somehow you come along

Cuz everytime that I get around you

I wonder if I ever cross your mind
For me it happens all the time

Yes I'd rather hurt than feel nothin at all

Who would have ever knew
That we would ever be more than friends
See you been all around the globe
Not once did you leave my mind

you really changed my life
Doin things I never do

I'm on the pursuit of happiness and I know everything that shine ain't always gonna be gold

I'll be fine once I get it, I'll be good.

Tell me what you know about dreamin’
you don't really know about nothin’
tell me what you know about them night terrors every night
you don't really care about the trials of tomorrow

So maybe it's true
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
I'm finally now believing

Now baby save me from the game before it plays me
my life's a movie

i cant care less if you love me or hate me

Sometimes we fall down, can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
If this is all we got and we gotta start thinking
If every second counts on a clock that's ticking

There's no point trying to hide it
No point trying to erase me
I know i got a problem
By doing this behaviour

doubt

big doubt on you..
ask yourself...

yeah...I'm not sure..

a called from a friend...asking for the old memories...
another called from someone that i believe will protect ownself and while get hurt only will look on you..asked to not turn back anymore...

what i feel now?
what i really felt right now?
yeah...I'm happy...
for the one that love and care me the most...

attention and doubt...
the reaction and the presence...
on how you bring and talk...
how you react to the environment...
how you get to the society...

doubt and avoid the feeling...
cuz me, myself not sure what's in your mind...
how bad you want to know ??
or just leave it and never mind as usual??
follow the rhythm and the flow as u mentioned...
are we getting there or we never started yet ?

perspective and wondered how to address the doubts
Imagination kicks in, negative emotions flare and we are off and running with worse case scenarios…
Doubt causes us to feel off-kilter and not on firm ground...of the ego's in us
fear and discomfort...

Whenever I feel doubt about something I use it to ask myself if this is what I really want to be doing. Sometimes the answer is no and I figure out a way to stop but usually I confirm that yes, I’m on the right path and find myself re-energized.

viewing my reaction and fears as something negative. In uncertainty, so much clarity can emerge and I have come to appreciate that every person and experience serves me to either grow or withdraw from life. So, my invitation is “Bring it on!”

Have you ever so felt strongly about saying yes to something that felt so right? You might not have known why it felt right or been able to give great reasons. You just knew... AND you did it!

i wouldnt ask anymore...

on phone call

Recently, quite frequent make a phone call to my loved one...
Family of course ~~
Especially to Along...
Talked to him...
More on my career now and my current class...

yeah..i miss him...
Miss him to pampered, talked, touched, and hugged me as he always do when I still kid...
It’s been 2 weeks that I always back late from work...
And everyday he'll call me...
The same question and answer keep repeating...
Along, this is the only things I could do...
to make my life busier...
I love you and you always be...

After called Along, 2nd person that I'll called will be neither mama or kakak
Mama still the same as usual...
Old lady?? Yeah...they always think bout their children...
No matter where they go what they do...
Even thou, mama love to mumble here and there...
Just hope that she could make hers' mind free...
Don’t think too much mummy...

kakak...
Just had a conversation with her during lunch hour today...
Asked me am I going back this Christmas?
Asked her back "don't you miss me?”
Guess what she replies??
LOL...
“If you wanna back then come back, but make sure prepare yourself...all of them will ask who the one ?”
Good answer from me “my dear sis, if like that I rather not coming back...hahahha...if not, can I bring 10 guys to come back and let them choose?”
"CRAZY" with a laugh from sis...

Gosh...am I too old already??
Why people keep asking when you gonna get marry??
Are there no more questions that can be asked?

Not till now….

Only wishes for all of you there…
Take a good care of your health and loves will never end…

and in a sudden, i miss the noisy sounds..shouting...laughing...mumbling...crying...and arguing from each of them...
their faces came across one by one in my mind now...
the smiles will kept well in me...the precious assets i had :)

Life is SHORT

received this forwarded mail...
quite touching... and nice reminder for us actually...
just bear in mind....

life is SHORT

BREAK the rules

FORGIVE quickly

LOVE truly

LAUGH constantly

And never stop SMILING

no matter how strange life is

Life is not always the party we expected to be

but as long as we are here, we should SMILE and be GRATEFUL

The girl in the picture is Katie Kirkpatrick, she is 21 . Next to her, her fiance, Nick, 23. The picture was taken shortly before their wedding ceremony, held on January 11, 2005 in the US . Katie has terminal cancer and spend hours a day receiving medication.In the picture, Nick is waiting for her on one of the many sessions of chemo to end. In spite of all the pain, organ failures, and morphine shots, Katie is going along with her wedding and took care of every detail. The dress had to be adjusted a few times due to her constant weight loss
An unusual accessory at the party was the oxygen tube that Katie used throughout the ceremony and reception as well.The other couple in the picture are Nick's parents. Excited to see their son marrying his high school sweetheart.

Katie, in her wheelchair with the oxygen tube , listening to a song from her husband and friends

At the reception, Katie had to take a few rests. The pain did not allow her to stand for long periods Katie died five days after her wedding day.

Watching a woman so ill and weak getting married and with a smile on her face makes us think.....

Happiness is reachable, no matter how long it lasts.

We should stop making our lives complicated..

it's make me think twice...hmmm...

maybe thrice, fourth, fifth...

maybe many times...

was thinking how much happiness that I've brought over...

how real is the happiness shown...

hmmm...

i hate this part

as everytime i blink
i think of you
i wish you were here
We're just friends, What are you saying
For you, I would have done whatever
And I just can't believe, we ain't together
And I wanna play it cool,
And im in pieces, Baby fix me !!

the mighty of WORDS

its true when its comes to words...

words could make you feel good...
and words could killed you too !!!

you giving the very best word in the world
" LOVE " ...

yeah love is the greatest word i could think about it now..
and that represent to any kind of love in this world...
the way you said it, thought, acted...

all is about LOVE...

love your kind to the fullest..

words that could killed you??
should i stated it here??
don't think so..
there is so much of words that could killed you...
"KILLED" here not that really make you die
even thou there is cases which could really make you die for the wrong words...

cursing is another word that we always do..
in daily ??

YEAH !! I'm really sure...
EVERYDAY .. EVERY MOMENT !!
curse while trap in the traffic..curse while doing lots work while others is not...
curse while you get the wrong things...
curse in so many ways...

sometimes, words could make people surround you upside down...

sometimes, i wish i could be good in talking...using the right word in each conversation..twisting here and there...but I AM WHO AM I...

sometimes... its better you know how to talk even thou how good you are in work...

people will never appreciates...

Faces in ME

faces in me...
they always do...

Eliza & Eugenie

Esther

Daniel & Daddy

Sis Azie & Daniel

27

hmmmm....
such in a sudden...
was thinking where am i goin after this?

it's came across a number of 27 ....
27.......
what is 27 all about ???

a number of my age.... LOL
2 more year....
2 more year where am i ?
2 more year what could i achieve?

JOYAH !!!

LOL !!!

what kind of creatures is that...
cant understand !!

their mouth just cant stop it...
everywhere and anywhere...

gosh !!
who they think they are ???

good enough ??
please la...

behave yourself before talking others, babe !!

you are nobody to judge me !!
not even know who am i...

single and sexy

yay!!
SINGLES !!!
kinda like it...
and

gonna used to it.... !!!!

yes to everything !!
go to anywhere you wanna go...
eat what so ever you wanna grab...
buy anything what you wish...
say it loud what in your mind...

YES !!

I'm ready to mingle !!

and yeah...

gonna mingling around this year...

AGAIN !!

MUACKSZ !!!

p/s: to da people out there...whose just broke up..

don't be sad babe...just chill...love your precious life...

lets us mingling !!

CNY 2010

Happy New Year 2010....
yeah, its fall on the same date of Valentines...

nothing much for me...
doesnt matter...
only a gather wif family...

just few snap on dat night....
watching firecracker...
seeing those happy faces..

yay !! ANG POW of da year... LOL

Beautiful

Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful

And suddenly, i saw debris

Now and then, I get insecure

From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say

Words can't bring me down

I am beautiful in every single way

Yes, words can't bring me down

So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious

So consumed in all your doom

Trying hard to fill the emptiness

The piece is gone left the puzzle undone

That's the way it is

When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay

And everywhere we go
The sun won't always shine

But tomorrow will find a way

All the other times...................

believe

oh my gosh....

I'm missing something that not belong to me...
thou, I'm not belong to any...to whomever...

distraction is needed !!!