Holding On

Daaa...

I don't know what i feel now...

Ever since...

I never felt any security in myself...

Not even anything...

Friends....Money.... or even Myself

Thus family couldn’t make me safe, enough...

What am I holding on...

Is only something that I couldn’t catch

My soul?

Following the life routine...

Wake up, bathing, preparing self, work, chi chi cha cha, back home...

Life goes on...

And another day wasted..

Without any secured and happiness...

While I’m smiling and laughing...

And I am pretty much of grateful on what I had...

Envy?

Jealousy?

Ambitious?

Attitude?

Ability?

Maybe I just lost my believer...

Yet, there is no trust in anywhere, anybody.....

Frustrated...

Hateful...

Forgiven...

Forgotten...

You name it....

Again, my mind goes to something that makes my heart keep pounding even harder, faster and producing more sweat; came along with a shaking body...

Yeah, I’m scared!!!

And I hate it when it makes me feel really uneasy and unsecure!!!