Mummy....I'm Sorry

mummy....i'm sorry.....
i'm sorry to all of you...
i kept all this for my own...
i cant even face you all thr...

i felt empty...
i'm not dare to tell the truth...
i'm sorry...
really... i hope you could understand....

everytime you ask bout him....
i just could lied to you...
he is ok...he is fine..and you will always heard that..
he is working now....
that's it...
im sorry for all of u thr...

sorry for daddy...along, kakak...and everyone thr....
i dont know how to tell you all...
i hope i have the gut to talk bout it....
i know...the more i hold it...
the more hurt would it be...
i really tired for holding ths thg....
my feeling is dead b4 it could growth much more...

i kept lied...
keep doing what ever tht is i never done it b4...
i know its really frustrating...
i'm tired too...
i dont even know until whn i could hold it...

all ths while...
i'm been alone...
without anyone beside me...
i just wanna lie on you...
been pampered...
feel your warm hand...
feel your love....

i miss you so much...
everytime i call you..
i dont know how to start the conversations...
but, i just wanna let you know...
i love you so much, mummy...
please take care of your health...

im sorry...i cant b your side...enough that you'll always b in my heart...