Forgive, forget and....

As we started a new beginning of the year...

wishing and passing each of everyone a lovely message to start a new resolution...

lift up for our praise to the highest..

sending our gratitude for what we've earn and learn...

I'm starting to a new job, to a new company and a new role again...

yeah...to crawl and stand as high up enough as people surround me..

to bend down as low as people needs me...

For a year that passed, 

so much that we've lose and gain...

I gain something valuable in a relationship, not in a term of lovey-dovey boyfriend-girlfriend...

it's more like how I see the world from the eyes of each conversation..

the world that I never see before...

To lose someone does hurt so much..

Losing him make everyone nuts..

yeah...keep on pointing who's fault is it..

why it couldn't be prevent in much early?

Getting frustrated whenever his name came out...

It'll direct to my anger and some how the sadness and tears come out...

I'm not trying to forget about your existence sayang...

but to look back for your smile and the way you asked for it does hurt so much...

I know that I never spend as much time as the others with you

but I do love you...a love that I couldn't explain...

I lift my praise to HIM..

hoping that HE could understand even without I asked for it...

to my family...please be safe and healthy...

it's does cost much when it's hurt indirectly for each of us...