I Don't Know

yeah.... I really don't know...
deep down there I wish that I could shout it loud...
way loud that ever people could hear it..
deep down...

try to not show it...
try to act nothing...

people...
human...

instead what happening...
and a part of it...
fate and trust is not to be given...

again I'm gonna use the tik tok sound...
a sound that really make me become a murder..a monster...a killer...an evil person that I hope I could do...

What I want to be?
What I like?
What is my favorite color?
Who am I?
Do I understand myself?
till now what is the achievement I made?

again the tik tok sounds appearing in my mind...
my heart sick and it's pounding...tickling till shaken each of my joint...

FATE & TRUST ??