i felt sick !!

"you make my day"
this sentence always come out from my mouth lately....

i dont know...i just like to say so...

even for my requestor in Australia...
complaining this and that...
following this and that..
even saying that i'm performing well while keep on mumbling...

even i feel so bad...
even i feel so sick...
even i feel so lost...

the sentence will make me better...
eventhou...my friend would say...
" are you mad ?? you still can laugh ?? what so funny ?? "

i duno...i just keep on going
just keep pushing on...

i dont want to think anymore...
i rather not to think anything...
rather that just switch it off...
like i said it before for some1 that could be my friend but then just dissapeared like that...
i dont know...
a friend that make my day...

Now...
i felt really dizzy...
still got a lot of things that needs to follow up...
i felt really sick..
i felt like vomitting...
gosh...

Last Saturday night...
i fainted...
just really suddenly black-out...
luckily got some1 bside me...
huh....been so long that i dont feel sick that much...

i dont know....
i hope you could be there...
to hold me again...
but there will be no more YOU...

while i still aware...
half awake actually...
i really felt so cold and yet im sweating...
stay overnight at my friend house, saying that my face really pale, white and greenish...
lolzz...i told why din take pic, thn the answer will be " are you crazy?? im already freak out and you still can laugh there and ask me take picture.. " then i say " ok... i wan sleep now..." the end...
sleep whole nite till the morning... after been force eat porridge and hot milo...only can ate for less than 10 spoon...maybe?? thn drank the milo for 1/3 of the glass...im really feel weak...my voices dont even can come out... hmmm..... black out again...