nightmare???

huhu...last 2 nites i've been alone in the house...
as usual...nthg change....its more likely a dead house for me...
nowadays..
not onli for past 2 days...its more on past 5 mths..
its a dead house...no more happiness..no more laugh...
and i couldnt find any way to make it as a happy house anymore..
i lost the battle...and i lost everythg...
and yes... i lost the very hard part in me...inside me..

goshhhh..stop it...

talk about past 2 nites..
i watching television at the living room...
watch the stupid movie..kind of scary movie wif Ju'on inside...
errr...forgot wat is the tittle ady..

i fall asleep...not so sure wat time..
due to the boringness of the story...tired...losing inside out...teeth pain and most is missing something that has been missing like century or kind of ages...
and that nite...i duno...why im wearing the ring again..and its loose...its drop...
i duno..wat kind of feeling is dat...and i just see it like dat...

opsss...again...out of story...
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i heard the door open..and it wake me up..
my heart beat keep on pounding so hard..
like a drum..the beats really fast..and i could feel like my whole body is shaking...
damn...i quickly wake up and take my phone and blanket go inside the room without looking for any1...
and..the door room keep on knocking ask for xtra bed...
not that i dont want to open the door...but i feel really scare...
its knock knock knock in a very hard and make me feel like...whr am i ??
my body keep on shaking and im really scare...that i almost faint on my bed...
crazy...

aftr 10 - 15 mins of knocking... outside bcome quite...but its not as quite a quite...
so...i just leave it like it... i dont want to know...

at 5am..i wake up..saw a couple outside sleeping on the sofa...
im sorry..i dont want to be rude...but you all never respect me..
i have lost my respect on YOU... i try but i couldnt..
coz the way you treating me... make me really dissapointed and losing myself...

im sorry dear...i love you much but i couldnt hate you...
i lost my respect on you cuz you never want to talk bout it...
and i really feel like some1 that i really care is stabbing me until i couldnt find any way to return back...cuz you couldnt find the path that you've been told me before...

im sorry...im stubborn on wishing you the best...